Day 2: Your First Love

Day 01 – Introduce
Day 02 – Your first love
Day 03 – Your parents
Day 04 – What you ate today
Day 05 – Your definition of love
Day 06 – Your day
Day 07 – Your best friend
Day 08 – A moment
Day 09 – Your beliefs
Day 10 – What you wore today
Day 11 – Your siblings
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Day 13 – This week
Day 14 – What you wore today
Day 15 – Your dreams
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
Day 19 – Something you regret
Day 20 – This month
Day 21 – Another moment
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
Day 25 – A first
Day 26 – Your fears
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Day 29 – Your aspirations
Day 30 – One last moment

Well that's an easy one! That would be Chris =] It's funny, way back when we were in High School, I thought we would get married. Nothing was ever going to change my mind.

High School - Good Times =]

Fast forward to my Junior year, I started thinking too much. I had convinced myself that it was a bad idea to marry the first boy I ever dated, ever kissed, ever danced with.. etc. I was sure that there were other fish in the sea for both of us. So we broke up.

Well fast forward a couple more years.. I'm in a relationship with a boy from school. Don't get me wrong, he was a nice guy, but we were not a good match. (He was Atheist, I was Mormon. He wanted to stay un-married and not have kids for several years, I wanted to start my family) I started daydreaming about Chris. I knew that I should have felt guilty for thinking about another boy, but I couldn't help myself. Every time I pictured myself as a married woman with kids, I always pictured Chris next to me. I missed him. I missed his smell, his smile, his hugs, those crystal blue eyes, everything.

So I broke up with my boyfriend and started pursuing Chris. Problem was, he had a girlfriend. But I was determined, and had no shame. It didn't take too long, before I won =] We were married later that year, and life was perfect.

I think he still technically had a girlfriend at this point.. Woops =/ lol

 Whenever I look back on my dating years, I realize how much I didn't know about love. When I had boyfriends, I really thought I loved them. But I soon realized that I had no idea what I was talking about. I remember the first time I realized I loved Chris, and we were meant to be together. We were sitting at my favorite spot, under a bridge on the Sandy River. Chris leaned over and kissed me, and I'm not kidding when I say there were fireworks. It really felt like a fourth of July celebration going on inside my chest. On the way home, I kept looking over at him in the driver's seat of his 4Runner. Everything felt so perfect. I knew that I was going to spend the rest of my life with that man. He was the one, and I was certain of it. <3

*Note* I read this a few days later, and I realized I sounded pretty harsh. The other guys I dated between my two relationships with Chris.. they really were good guys. I have looked back on the past and really felt terrible for thinking so much about Chris when I was with them. Sure, everyone has their faults, but they really didn't deserve that. I tried to be a good girlfriend, I really did. But ultimately, that is why I broke up with them. I didn't feel like I was putting as much into the relationship as they were. I seriously hope none of them read this.. I'll feel so bad if they do.